I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is exchanging (sharing) a Music of Enjoy and Development or judgments of the ego centered on everything you require (agree with) in the mind. There’s number other way. In the Program, your brain (content) is split between God and the pride; and you are selecting all the time with an area as reason for effect.
Forms (all points of this world) are miscreations reflecting the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve made it up (miscreated this world) and will give it up any time by fixing the mind (forgiveness). True prayer involves that modification of your head as Lord has nothing to do with forms.
What Prayer is Not:
As you are always choosing, that which you ask for once you pray is what counts. Whenever you plead in prayer to possess Lord correct a questionnaire trouble with still another sort issue, you’re wondering the confidence mind for help (not God). These types and wants are regarded more essential than God’s Enjoy that’ll stay hidden to the amount you select the illusion.
All outside points (forms) are needs. Other brands are wants, dreams, position, problems, vomiting, individual love (special relationships), gifts and targets these days, etc. They are what you pick as substitutes for God’s Love and the pride can distort the goal of prayer by with them to help expand the illusion. Therefore, prayer can not be about “forms” or “needs” in just about any way.